Going Out In Style

“I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is to try to please everyone.” – Bill Cosby

I’ve been spreading myself too thin lately. I haven’t been focusing on what I want. Time for a change. Time for me to be better to myself. Time to focus on making myself happier.

At This Moment

Wow, so I know it has been a long while since I’ve been on here. But life has been crazy busy on the weekends, but I’ve missed being busy, so I’m not really complaining. Beats the hell out of staying in my house pulling my hair out going (mentally) crazy instead of happy crazy. Concerts with Nicole to see The National Rifle, seeing Alice in Wonderland and The Crazies and brinner afterwards with John and some Arcadia peeps and getting my nose pierced. Haven’t had much time to clean my room, hell I’ve barely had time to do laundry (which amazingly enough gets done though!) Life right now is pretty amazing. Taste of warm weather has be salivating for Spring to get here sooner! I’m itching to go out and photograph with John this summer and go to some abandoned places. I’ve never been so excited for summer (even my birthday is in summer and I hate it) ever until now! I have goals and ideas and there’s travel plans to Nashville, TN for a family reunion in the horizon. I’m excited!

I’m looking at apartments a lot more. I NEED to get out of this house! I need my own place! I’m looking at an apartment in Dublin tomorrow, hopefully its a good one! Keeping my fingers crossed!

Here’s to another good couple of months till summer! 🙂

Come Away With Me

Life right now is pretty freakin awesome! Dating a wonderful guy who is so good to me, seeing my old Arcadia friends, paying bills and yet still having money left over to do shit! This month has been crazy fun so far, sure it had its downs (i.e. Judy’s memorial service) but I like to focus on the good that came out of said downside. Which I got to see Amy (and her boy), Allie, Tara, Becca and some old professors from Arcadia. I’ve missed them so much, their craziness and our general conversations.

It seems that every weekend in February is going to be me seeing someone from Arcadia (the exception was last weekend where I spent it with John). This coming weekend my old roommate and good friend Kat is coming up and it is going to be crazy. They are “kidnapping” my boyfriend to take him to their favorite strip club Day Dreams and I’m unfortunate enough to be tagging along. Which is fine, I’ll just be in the corner playing pool and getting ridiculously drunk to the point of blacking out. That’ll be hot. And if John can survive Kayla and Kat, he can survive anything.

Which leads me to the last weekend of February. Nicole and I are going to see a concert at Kung Fu Necktie in Philly. One of our fave local bands The National Rifle are playing there that night. Booze and music? How can anyone say no to that??

So as you can see the only downtime I’ve had is nighttime after work, but I couldn’t be happier either way. 🙂

A Heavy Heart

these past few weeks have been amazing! Hanging out with the boy as much as possible at work and at each of our houses. Getting to know each other and quickly understanding each other’s quirks. I love his silliness.

However last week I learned that one of my favorite photography professor and mentor, Judith Taylor, passed away. Everybody was shocked about it. She was so full of life and all my memories of her are of her laughing and being so enthusiastic about art, photography, and the Phillies. She changed my life. Her work was so beautiful. She mostly created photograms with natural items. Please check out her website here.

In Memory of Judy Taylor


"two birds, one black, one white, heading in opposite directions" by Judith Taylor

detail of "two birds, one black, one white, heading in opposite directions"

"mgh: window #2, east side (boston ivy)" from the green house installation project at Eastern State Penitentiary

Eskimo Kisses

I love me some eskimo kisses just as much as normal kisses. I’m so happy right now, you have no idea. I’ve had a smile on my face for the past 3 days. I love this feeling. I feel lighter than air. This boy is making me crazy and happy in such a good way. I hope he feels the same way. He told me he has been smiling for 3 days as well. His friends are even commenting on it. By the way. Its totally about Short Hat Guy Who Works On Other Side. He makes me feel this. 🙂

Seriously?

So I know I probably shouldn’t admit this in such a public place, but right now I honestly do not care. I’m horny as anything. Dear god. I kinda just want to punch my uterus and yell at it to stop messing around, but I’m pretty sure I’d get some weird looks. Sooooo that’s out of the question. But seriously, stupid hormones. I’m craving the cuddling and the closeness of another body. And I mean craving. I had to constantly keep my body and mind in check these past 2 days so I don’t jump some people, which would not have been a pretty sight. And I’m pretty sure the fact that I’m going to Florida tonight will not help.

So I need to come up with code names for the people I find very attractive at work. None work in Small Parts, but I don’t exactly KNOW which part they’re a part of in the warehouse. So confusing still, so I can’t exactly use that criteria. They’re both sweet and funny. I guess when I see my friends when I come back from vacation, I’ll have to get their opinions on some code names. 😉

On the brightside, although I’m sexually frustrated right now, I’m in a seriously great mood. I think its because the holidays are so close, I’m going to see my grandparents, a major drinking/drunk possibility, baking for other people, seeing the 2 cute guys at work (of which I wanted to jump *ahem*). One or all of these could be the factors. I like my good moods. I like it when they rub off on other people, making the other people feel better.

Which was hard for me to do last night. I had made cookies for my lovely work people, and at the end of my shift, I went to go look for my brother to ask him to bring the bin home with him (he gets off work later than I do, and I wanted the guys to take full advantage of the cookies), but when I found him, he was in one of the trucks that he loads, crying. I have never seen my brother cry since my grandmother died, and even then it wasn’t a lot. I was taken aback. I asked him what was wrong (I feared the worst and thought it had something to do with our family), but his girl-friend of one year had broken up with him and told him that she might love another guy. Yea. Ouch. What can I say to that? I’ve never really experienced that, I didn’t have any words to say. So I just hugged him, and told him to stop talking to her for the night or else he might regret something later on. The only thing besides that I could say was “I’m sorry buddy”. It sucks that she did that to him, but it happened.